Stay focused

I've come to the conslucsion of why music helps me so much. It prevents me from thinking. When those headphones are in my ear they drown out the world around me. I listen to that metalcore. Listening as the lead singer scream their voice out. I substitute their screams for the screams that I can not scream. If only I could make the music louder. Concentrating on the music allows me to not concentrate on the issues around me...it's my medicine. I'm looking inside myself. In the end you can only rely on yourself. You can't even rely on the feeling of others. Sometimes I envy others. But I brush it off like I don't give a damn....but I do....because thoughts, memories emerge.....interesting huh.

I just need to stay focused. I've started to keep an organizer. To write down everything I need to do in my day or week. It's so easy to let emotions get in the way....and make you lose focus...



I've discovered the band iwrestledabearonce....and I love them<3